I got a job! Funny story, I interviewed for it over a month ago, and they chose someone else who was "more experienced." Now, turns out the person they chose is "heavy" and not used to being out in the heat and very active. She was having a really hard time, so the position opened up again. I start training on Tuesday!
The job is for THE ANIMAL NANNY. It's a doggy daycare/pet sitting facility. It's only part-time, but I've been realizing I might just have to take 2 part-time jobs to make things work. At least this brings some money in so I can keep my bills paid and Cash fed and looked after properly. When I land another part-time job, that will be able to go to living expenses such as getting an apartment.
I've had a few random thoughts about getting this job. My first thought, honestly, when I got the call was, "Hmmm, I guess I better make sure I have a proper diet now since their last hire couldn't handle the physicality of the job. I don't want to be like that person . . . maybe I should have really been working on this all along so that I had the energy reserves and strength at the ready. Now I'm just gonna play catch up."
I've been restricting the last few days. Not overly so, but I definitely know I'm not getting enough. I had given my scale battery to my boyfriend and told him no matter how great my anxiety he wasn't to give it back to me. But I've been concerned with my body, how my clothes are fitting, etc., so I've been upping my activity level and restricting a bit. I figured instead of weighing myself, I could measure myself. But I'm afraid to start that, too, since I'm sure THAT could become obsessive as well.
I have tried eating a normal portion size again, but I can't seem to do it. I feel intensely guilty for upping my portion size, or I feel like I need to purge if it's over a certain size. So, knowing that I need to eat more and feeling like I can't is very frustrating. I'm not sure how to move past this, but hopefully I'll be able to figure it out somehow.
In other news, Cash did AMAZING at the grocery store today. It was the biggest shopping trip we've done just the 2 of us, no one else with us. He listened very well, and followed closely with the cart. he even backed up really well when I was maneuvering in a tight spot.
I'm switching his diet to chicken free. He's been having a lot of reactions that seem to point towards a chicken intolerance/allergy. He's already on a grain free diet, and he was doing well, but apparently dogs can develop allergies to ingredients they are used to. I'm switching him to a fish-based protein diet, still grain free, and hopefully his symptoms clear up in a few weeks. Fingers crossed!
Until next time . . . "Choose the Good!"
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